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I was visiting with a fellow human being this week, an artist, a healer. She told me something that I have considered all week. Perhaps it was the reference to something so mysterious, or maybe it was how it incited my imagination, or maybe it was that it is just a fact. Things, people, even places disappear, and we never lay eyes on them again. But that is not exactly what she said.  What she said was, “Let go of the single socks in your sock drawer.”

When she said it, I imagined all the missing socks. They were hiking in droves, some massive migration. To where, I don’t know.  All I know is that they were leaving. They never left a note, never a word indicating their imminent departure. One day, they just up and left. So do I keep the other single socks in hopes of the return of the now invisible others? Or do I keep them as a reminder that things can go missing? A sort of tally of things that I have lost. Or do I keep them to shepherd the lonely and abandoned; after all, I have been lonely and abandoned in my life and I wouldn’t want someone to toss me in the rag bag or worse, the kitchen trash bin.

At some point in my life, I noticed the single socks. And being an organized sort of person, I set up a system to manage this dilemma.  It is my nature to make sense of things. So I periodically gathered the losers up, tied them into a parcel using one of their own and, on the next inquiry, if their mates didn’t show up, I tossed the lot of them. Poor things, it was rare that the others ever returned. And I did feel badly. I wanted the others to return, for everyone to feel whole and happy again. It was a practical system I had developed, but even so, it didn’t suit another aspect of my being.  I am a romantic. It felt cruel, or at least wasteful. There was so much potential in the metaphor; too much to just throw it all away. So for a while the kids and I turned them into puppets, stuffed them with cat nip, or wore them as mismatched as they were.

What about the socks in your sock drawer? How many have jumped ship? How many are determined to stay the course as reminders of what could have been, or of what once was? And what about you? Do you even know what is in there? Are you afraid to look? Is it easy to let the loners go? Is it necessary to help them find new meaning in life? Can you let go of the great mystery of what happens to the socks? And then how do you live in a world where things just up and disappear?

Today is the new moon in Gemini. It is conjunct with the Sun and Venus and nicely aspected by Jupiter. Think a perfect pair of the finest socks. You love them. They are the best money can buy. Go ahead and wear them with the satisfaction of knowing that even if they disappear, you will always have Paris.

In the midst of what you see as problematic, it can be difficult to recognize the opportunities. I can help you discover a new way of thinking that will assist you in managing and negotiating life’s obstacles. You will find that this new way of thinking provides you opportunities that you hadn’t previously noticed as well as affords you the confidence and desire to live your life in the driver’s seat.

Tami Satterfield, MSW, LCSW-C, NBCCH, HTP is a licensed psychotherapist who practices solution-oriented healing from a deep ecological perspective. Her specialities include hypnosis for anxiety, performance, and creativity. Sessions on-line or in Boulder, Colorado include cutting edge brain therapies that will change the way you think. Learn more at attentiontoliving.com

A trashman collecting the garbage in Radio City.  (Photo by Bernard Hoffman/The LIFE Picture Collection/Getty Images)

A trashman collecting the garbage in Radio City. (Photo by Bernard Hoffman/The LIFE Picture Collection/Getty Images)

Aries is hosting the Mercury-Uranus conjunction that disfavors the Moon in Capricorn, all the while that Mars in Sagittarius basks in the Sun of Aries. Translation: Your independent thinking about who you are suppose to be, might be liberated by remembering who you are. That memory may support a change to the storyline that includes expanding your role as lead.  What?

Yay, it is complicated.  It is just complicated enough that you might prefer not to notice, and declare the act of purging that old stuff as, “Just taking the trash out to the corner, hon.” But that old stuff might be of some sensitive matter. Don’t underestimate the power of letting go, or for that matter, being let go.

Jim Rohn said that you are the product of the 5 people with which you spend the most time. This isn’t really a surprise, after all, you are what you eat. Take a look at who and where you are spending your time. Are these people and places helping or hindering your desire to live a wholesome life? Turn about is fair game, so are you helping or hindering other’s to live wholesome lives? These are two good questions and the answers run the world – by degrees of separation we are all moving this story forward.

Let go of the fear of being let go and let yourself be.

Let me say it again: let go of the fear of being let go.  Let yourself be yourself so you can see the wholesome life you want to live.  Go deep into those sensitive areas of your life. It will be fierce, I know. But go ahead. Go a bit deeper. Drift a bit wider. See if you can let go long enough to see who you really are and what you really want to do.  Then, and only then, see how you can help others live the wholesome lives they want to live.

Discover who you really are and what you are here to do on planet Earth. Visit attentiontoliving.com to learn more about Tami Satterfield and her unique methods for helping you change the way you think so you can live the life you want.

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The clickety click click steel sound.
The workings of an impressive set of gears.
Teeth turning something over and over.
The backward feel of climbing up,
Until I am on top of it.
Desperate with fear.
Clinging to something stupid.

“Stop,” I say.
“What have I done?”
“Close your eyes,” I say.
“Don’t look.”
“Yes. okay.”
“Okay.”
“Yes.”

And the steel sound –
Clickety click click –
Clacks.
And, in between,
My breath in and out,
There is silence.
It is still.

Then,
The slight almost undetected sway.
I am soon convinced,
There is no turning back.
And the clack lets go forward into a beautiful swoosh.
The air, soft and warm at first,
Quickly steals my breath.

Haunches lurch out of my seat.
Stomach a sack of butterflies let loose.
“Dear God,
What have I done?”
Metal-barred fists full of dear life.
I am worshiping,
“Oh my God,”

At the steep drop of things.
The bottom has come out.
I am falling apart,
Descending to my demise,
If not saved by some unexpected hard turn to the right.
Barreling at such a speed,
Surely this was a bad idea.

I am a wreck.
A series of sharp turns
Followed by several loop de loops –
The whole world upside down.
I give in.
Give up, even.
Let go to the long crazy ride.

September 2014

Moving boxes

I am moving backwards through my life,
Soon to be spatialised, catalogued, and titled.
I picture it –
Already gone.

Fingering its contents.
I am moving through
A favored museum.
A Medieval Priestess
Caring for souls.

Selecting, to preserve this one.
Safeguarding a misunderstood notion
Of my undervalued heritage.
It is a great production

This exhibit:
“Remember the time;”
That exhibit:
“When I was.”

Wrapping it up,
It disappears
Into smoothed papered assurances,
Like butchered meats.

I am satisfied, proud even.
The purchase it gives me,
Something to hold on to.
An illusion of my reality.

Filling boxes.
My back burdened of the stuff
That has made me.
I am a tired curator.

The artist’s rival, banking on futures, coming attractions.
Imagining new marble statues,
Declarations on pedestals
Of my next show.

October 13, 2014

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Virtual Workshop

We have a new moon in Leo coming in July 26. I like to look at the world and my life from many different perspectives. It gives me more options. It can make it easier to “see” what to do. It can make it easier to make sense of things and align my actions with my purpose. If you have interest in exploring this notion, you might be interested in working this new moon energy alongside of understanding the current universal energy flow. This is not necessarily about astrology, it is about utilizing readily available information (astrological energy) to understand things for a greater perspective. With more information, you will likely find it easier to influence your life and you might begin to really understand how to let go of the illusion of control and trust that it can work out for you. You might come to better understand the notion of faith.

Are you interested? If so, I will be providing a workshop on “learning to let go and trusting that you can manifest your heart’s desire.”

How does it work? Expect to receive emails from me that will include educational information about the universal energy at this time, strategies for thinking about it, suggestions for putting new thoughts into action, and questions for personal inquiry. You may also ask questions of me that I will answer to you, as well as share in my outgoing emails (without disclosing your personal identity) so that others “studying” alongside you can benefit from your wise inquiries — just like a classroom setting only its perfectly fine to be in your pjs!

When and how long? The week of July 21 through the week of August 18

What does it cost? Not a thing past your interest. It is a freebee.

Ready to get started? Send me an email letting me know your interest. Include: 1. A sentence that states you give me permission to share questions you may ask without including your personal or identifying information. 2. What you would like to gain from this workshop. 3. What your heart does desire.

Looking forward to working together.

Tami
attentiontoliving.com
tbsatterfield@comcast.net

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Life offers us many opportunities to feel uncomfortable. Stress can result from a myriad of experiences: grocery shopping, that conversation with your boss or your spouse or your teenager, even time on Facebook! When we “feel” uncomfortable, we might find ways “to not feel” the discomfort: food, drugs, alcohol are just a few. The problem is that when we numb uncomfortable feelings, we numb ALL our feelings. The things we desire to feel get numbed, too – things like contentment, satisfaction, or joy. Let yourself be. Let yourself feel. Be with yourself and feel the full range of who your are, of what you are experiencing. In this way, you can experience a rich and full life that is vibrant. Let go and feel it all.

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This full Moon in Gemini is powerful and it is coming in whether you like it or not! If you have been working the moon energy since the new moon in Sagittarius, full moon fruition will arrive on Tuesday.

Gemini is Mercury-ruled so this “search for wisdom” Sagittarius new moon energy is about to erupt into greater clarity concerning communication of all sorts, internal (mind/body/spirit? and external (other humans and outside forces at work). With this clarity things might get a little prickly. Keep yourself grounded and mind extremes.

This new moon-full moon energy is like a rising phoenix, the death of one aspect of yourself will allow a rebirth. It is a time to let go of that which no longer serves you. So if you have been working this moon cycle, notice how in coming days, it might be easier to get where you are going and work that. Look for the openings, timing is everything. If you haven’t been working the energy, it is not to late. Go ahead and jump on in Tuesday night and let the full moon assist you in letting go. Don’t know what to let go of? That’s okay. Just ask to let go of whatever is ready to move.

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The stars, that nature hung in heaven, and filled their lamps with everlasting oil, give due light to the misled and lonely traveller.—John Milton

Every Full Moon is an opportunity to see our reflection more clearly and to better understand the nature of our experience here in duality. When the Sun and Moon are opposed the instinctive and the conscious flow back and forth with the potential to blend and integrate the characteristics of the signs that inhabit each end of the axis. When we consider the influences of this Full Moon we see that the simplicity of Taurus stands ready to share perspective with the mystery of Scorpio. Taurus is about establishing one self in physical reality, attaining the basic requirements for physical existence while Scorpio works upon the basis of exploring the true nature of that existence. Taurus is superficial while Scorpio is deep. (This does not mean that Taurus people are superficial or that all Scorpios are deep)

What is occurring is the ability to know in physical reality all that transpires in the depths of our psyche bringing clarity to what has typically been a chaotic experience. The Moon, as home to our emotions, benefits, finds security in, the peace of knowing the truth of this experience. When we examine the dynamic of this chart further we see that the rulers of Taurus and Scorpio (Venus and Pluto) are conjunct in Capricorn assisting us in bringing up inured patterns for review and transformation. This is ongoing of course. We should not forget the square between Uranus and Pluto that has been affecting us since June of 2012. (The synodic square occurs on November 24th. “The synodic square is the actual (heliocentric) square occurring in the current 138-year Uranus-Pluto synodic cycle that began on January 7, 1966, at the exact peak of the Vietnam War and the emergence of the Flower Power Political Movement. This is the first (90°) square in this cycle. The extreme cultural and societal events of the mid-1960s were a product of the Uranus-Pluto conjunction and the start of this 138-year Uranus-Pluto synodic cycle. The square occurring in 2012-2015 will stimulate dynamic cultural and societal action based upon what was set in motion in the 1960s. This few-year period should also be quite catalytic for those born in the mid-1960s.”– http://www.lunarplanner.com/Uranus-Pluto-Square/ Nick Anthony Fiorenza)

Let the old structures shift. Light is seen between the cracks. Expect relationship issues from the past to present them selves for resolution. Matters of lust and love, self-worth and transcendence are significant aspects in understanding the basic truth of Self.

Venus represents relationship and desire the ultimate goal of which is self-love and freedom from desire. The relationship between male/female has created reactions that run the gamut of human nature and how grateful we are for this, the roller coaster ride. What other reason to exist in duality than to savour the many nuances here? And to do it from a place of non-judgment allows us the pleasure without the suffering. As one becomes weary of the drama, and those feelings of being up and/or down, it is less a matter of choice as it is ‘been there done that’ so many times that I no longer require that experience. By accepting the transience of mind and emotion, attachment to an experience diminishes long enough to know the intrinsic nature.

In Taurus/Scorpio the whole matter of life and death, existence and non-existence arises for examination. To this ancient quest for understanding is a simple answer—that which is never born can never die and our true nature is always, infinite and eternal a truth that reveals itself as we encounter the illusion that we are anything that lies out side of the Self or that changes. The deep knowing of Scorpio finds expression through the simple expression that is Taurus and the reverse applies, that within this simple truth is the end of the quest to discover the mystery of human existence—there are no questions to be asked only moments of presence.

The fixed stars that influence this chart lie on either side of the Moon. They are Capulus at 24 degrees Taurus and Caput Algol (gorgon’s head) at 26 degrees. Both of these stars lie in the constellation Perseus, the hero who slew Medusa. Algol represents feminine power (though deeply feared) that through the centuries has been prominent during events of decapitation. There is also association with symbolically losing one’s head.

Capulus, in the sword hand of Perseus, represents male power, resources and tools that assist one to accomplish great deeds. The result of these two stars present in this Full Moon chart can only be known for sure as we pass through the energy of these few days prior to and subsequent to the opposition. As we are finding reconciliation and harmony where there was once conflict and misunderstanding it would be hoped that the energies of these two be felt as one, that they blend in a way that allows the most positive aspects of each to influence consciousness and if a few heads need to role in the process then so be it! Otherwise may the masculine not be threatened and may the feminine not defend. May they accept and allow what is to be. No need to conquer or control.

The closest aspect to the Moon is a sextile from Jupiter (20 deg. Cancer) and Black Moon Lilith (21 deg. Cancer). It is a potent combination when considered with the placement of Caput Algol, as the energy is very similar—both Medusa and Lilith have been demonized and loathed. Both are characterized by the serpent that was defeated before the patriarchy and the new religions could succeed. As a story this has outlived its usefulness.

Jupiter lends considerable weight to the wisdom of letting go and accepting all that is. There is value in seeing the limitations we have imposed upon our selves by repressing any aspect of human nature. We cannot know the self as love as long as we see any part of the self as unlovable.

Whenever we are faced with such powerful dynamics astrologically there is a discomfort that envelops us as the resistance to change meets the forces of transformation. Change will occur in time and resistance is futile. Best to step through the fear and embrace the light on the other side. It may surprise us how easy it is and the extent to which the pain is present depends upon my willingness to accept.

Part of the clarity we obtain during this Full Moon is that we do not need to seek love, we are love and that the inner peace we truly desire is as a result of knowing the self as love. All of this occurs and then life happens and our relationship as everything is as apparent as a Full Moon in all its luminous beauty hanging within the same source of I am.